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mystearicaengland:

You know. I have a ton of terrible things to say about you; but because I refuse to degrade myself to the level of ‘anon hate’ I’m going to say that maybe if you actually saw yourself from another perspective, you’d see the potential why, for why someone would hate you.

• Actually, it was already anon hate. And if I would’ve seen it from another perspective, I might’ve realised that the reasons to hate me are pretty much gone, not why people would hate me, because there was never someone who hated me more than I did. And if someone’s got a ton of terrible things to say about someone else, they should a) just say them and b) say them straight into someone’s face.

As previously mentioned, there are quite a few things but since you’re asking, I guess it doesn’t quite classify as anon hate? I’ll cut it short. Your consistent ‘woe is me’ attitude in regards to relationships. Frequent attention seeking behaviour. Your mental/emotional maturity of an eight year old. What seems to be an absolute rejection of yourself and your identity. Incapability to adapt.

• Yes, I said you could tell me, but it is still anon hate. Yes, I did hate myself, but I’ve had pretty good reasons for that, but I don’t have to justify myself to someone who’s been treating me bad. I know that I’m seeking for attention, and I am not sorry about that because I’ve been all alone for my whole life, and I’m constantly afraid that people will leave me again, so I’m trying to hold those close who mean the most to me, and I don’t think there’s anything wrong about that. And although I find it amusing that someone who barely knows me is refering to me as someone who is mentally eight years old, I find is just as disgusting, because it’s a good example for the society we’re living in.

I just want you to be happy all the time, even though I know it’s stupid getting attached to someone who has such little self esteem at times.

• It is stupid, indeed, but necessary. People who can’t love themself need others to do so, because if no one would love them, they’d probably do pretty stupid things.

You are so fucking pathetic, I’m sorry. Please get a hold of yourself and don’t blame others for what you are.

• I never blamed anyone but myself. I could’ve blamed my mother, for she ruined my life in a few ways, but I’m not going to do so because I love her. I could’ve blamed some guys I met, but it would be pointless because I’ve already forgiven them a long time ago. No matter what I’m doing in my life, it’s always my own fault when things go wrong and I used to hate myself for that. But not anymore. I don’t understand why or how it happened but I’m completly fine with myself now. And now that I’m fine with myself, I can say that the use of “what” instead of “who” disgusts me. No matter what one does, or how pathetic they may seem, there is always a reason for it. It doesn’t make them less human and they do not deserve to be called with “what” instead of “who”. And I remember that I got this message when I wasn’t even down. I was happy at that time, not even posting anything negative anywhere.